Saturday, July 31, 2010
Yes...failure,guess everyone has been through many failure's along their life and hav their lowest point in their life=( Today,i juz had a small taste of wads like to be crushed and feeling like u r e lowest lifeform ever in this world...morning was raining so heavily rather moody e whole day juz like how i felt,had exam on fri and it didnt turn out well...i was 1 of e few border line case and although how much my instructor tell us to enjoy our wkend,i juz cant accept e fact and hav e mentality that i will somehow fail and hav to juz resit e paper,well,f it then juz resit e most another 2nd try...but all those hassle and trouble for so many ppl,till now then i realise how painful it can be. Im a type of person who likes to ponder alot unless i can get a assurance that e thing is a success! Much of a pessimistic person im, i juz duno y im borned this way,no matter how ppl encourage me or try cheering me up. Most often then not i will juz cover under my blanket and thing or 'analyze' e problem why it happen e way i hav not expected or desired...it might take days for me to think it through or until someone enlighten me then i will hav a peace of mind. Many a times, i have e feeling when my heart is like falling through a bottomless pit,a never ending bottom that kind of feeling...how i wish that someone will appear and save me and show me e light path...but sometimes it still depends on e individual on whether u r willing to accept the fact or not,juz like 1 of my friend.
We have gave him advice and even encourage him not to think too much abt e problem and juz let natural takes it course but he still felt sad,guess wadever i say i also got a chance to taste my own medicine,its not as easy as it seems. Just by saying forgetting it,everything wil be fine is juz only a cover up or comforting oneself,after awhile e problem will juz come back. So now that i hav taste a slight problem in my life, to some it might not be a big deal,but for me it has another meaning behind it or it meant alot to me,i will juz hav to accept and prepare for e worst and make e neccessary improvement to prevent such mistakes from recurring. Does all successful ppl become that successful aft being through all these hardship,torture,failures??? Maybe...
I juz hope that this mon when e results are release i would escape from 'hell' and be save,and i hav set myself a goal too, that if i wan to succeed in anything, i muz wrk hard for it and be more discipline...often read or listen how everyone say that ur life depends on u urself and no one. NO ONE can ever change how u wan ur life to be,its only u thats in control. How a person can be successful is also depend on them and how they pick themselves up from failure. Life is cruel...sometimes i really wish that i was never born, but since GOD has given me the chance to live,i should cherish it and make e best out of it w/o regrets. I dont wan aft many yrs when im lying on my death bed regretting or thinking that i hav not achieve anything in life. Instead,i wan to leave this world in a peaceful way,no sorrows or remorse...but a sense of achievement...
This yr has been a tough 1 for me,wit many ups and downs along e way,soon it will be yet another yr. Hopefully as i ages, i will become smarter and be a better person who is able to look at things in a more positive way and able to achieve sth in life:)
Yet another slpness nite..........................................
Sunday, July 11, 2010
WEE!!! Hello my blog, been lonely for quite sometime sorry for neglecting u... Guess wad,world cup final is today! Er....no correction,is tml morning. Haha... Holland Vs Spain, so will emerge as the new champs of e world? Well,i certainly hope that it would our dear spain win e cup,and would luv to see torres and co lifting e cup in triump. Cant wait for that moment to come,and hopefully aft e wc torres will not leave liverpool,so do gerrard and the rest=)
Today is also sun,means family gathering...today morning woke up at around 10+ coz last nite slp quiet late,stupid channel 5 thought they got show germany match but they didnt:(
Then at 11am went to cut my hair,crappy hairstyle now...told e uncle to cut that hairstyle come out like some kuku hairstyle,now my hair freaking short la, then went back home ate lunch,nap awhile then go to yishun ther de hot spring near semb airbase...woah, so hot man e water and u can smell e sulphur. Then aft that went to tamp area ther had dinner back home take a bath then blog lor coz aft so long didnt blog juz feel like blogging awhile. But i gonna turn in soon,need rest if not tml go wrk jialat la...
Alrite, when free will try to post more ofter then...bye and may e force be wit spain and TORRES PLS SCORE~
